ugh, please

trust me, you make me sick. i wish this stays like this always. i don't even care if i don't see you around anymore dot

beware

i know where nice leads to. doesn't mean that I'm nice or being friendly means I'm interested getting to know people in that way. don't get me wrong. sometimes i just like it when i have an opposite friend that i can always talk to. I'm sorry if i gave you people false hope. i don't even realize that i am giving you hope. sometimes i set in my mind that i wish that i could have a friend that stays as a friend. nothing more or nothing less. hope you can understand that.

prohidibidabado

life is what you make it,

like is what happens when you're busy making other plans

you gotta risk it to get the biscuit!

sakit sakit tapi best

please leave

Broken promises

But you don't really mind

It's not the first time

And you know it,

don't you know

Tell me why it is you only smile inside

But when you break me into nothing

Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried

Over and over again

Stupid fights

Wrong or right

Goodbye

I Remember when you came with me that night

We said forever, that you would never let me go

But here I am again

With nothing left inside

No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake

I really didn't mind

So beautiful, unmercifully

It took me down

Too little and too late

So now I know your kind

You fake it easy, just to please me

Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried

Over and over again

Sleepless nights wrong or right

Goodbye

I gotta let u go

It's you

Theres nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night

You said forever

Here I am again

With nothing left inside

No I don't wanna but

I gotta

Let U Go

i cant make it go away. its stuck in my head,

goodbye

you have a hell to pay when you said those meaningless words,

how could i ever trust every word you say now?

say it like you mean it,

don't just say it because you feel like it,

if you notice,

it hurts others,

even though it meant nothing,

you make me feel,

i cant trust anyone anymore.

hip rolling

look at her tummy! :O

random

i miss my tongue icon! lets sing. critical acclaim HAHAHA :D

aunty mama said that shamsuddin's pout looks like bontot itik! HAHAHAHAHAHA!

parker

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIKI! ;D

just got back from lunch with cousins, aunt and uncle. sat in front of izran. goood! handsome boy, HAHA. i wanna watch ice age 3! :D

happy :)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PAPA !

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEBIAN! :D

happy outlaw

Watch your thoughts; they become words

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

chica chica

I AM OFFICIALLY A CORLEONE ! haha, my name is CHICA CORLEONE ! ;D

a whole new thing

what ifs

-what if you re stupid of using other people?

-what if i don't care about you anymore?

-what if i don't give a damn about other people talking about me?

-what if I'm happy without you?

-what if I'm glad that i made that decision?

-what if you are the jackass who treats people like shit?

so what if i am like that, does it have anything to do with you? i don't think so. so i think you should just mind your own business and care less about others. next time, put yourself first, like you always do. so get out, leave, don't come back

i hear em talk

Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, Or even when somebody's beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and Compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.

aaaaeeee

HELLO ! i've been busy lately, so i could not really post new post. haha. i've been busy with tuitions, birthdays and tuitions. haaa, yada yada yada.

thoughts :

"ee apahal semua org ni"

car rides

i dont go all excited about cars except when i see BMW 5 series, but this is just so cool! :D

it moved me, (:

I don't know you

But I want you

All the more for that

Words fall through me

And always fool me

And I can't react

And games that never amount

To more than they're meant

Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me

And I can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me

And I'm painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Falling slowly sing your melody

I'll sing along

hate strikes

I HATE YOU SO MUCH UNTIL IT HURTS!

drumskadumbs

there's no reason for us to be close anyway,

i think its worth letting you fly away,

i can only wish you the best on your way,

sometimes goodbye is the only way.

figure.

thoughts ;

- so fast? though I'm kinda sad but I'm happy for you.

- how can i make a distance when we're suppose to be closer?

- only 6 months till high school ends.

- it is time to step ahead (:

- things just got better each day.

- what would i do when you're not always around?

SHEESH!

this kind of attitude makes me sick!

IT REALLY PISSES ME OFF WHEN YOU REALLY CARE LESS ABOUT YOUR BEST FRIEND'S FEELINGS ! DITCHING THEM THE LAST MINUTE ! REALLY NICE ! IF YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD FRIEND JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM WHEN ONLY SOMETIMES YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE, THEN DON'T EVEN THINK THAT YOU DESERVE THE TITLE "BEST FRIEND" ! FRIENDS DON'T DO LAST MINUTE CHANGES ! FRIENDS DON'T DITCH EACH OTHER ! FRIENDS DON'T LEAVE OTHER FRIENDS BEHIND ! FRIENDS DON'T CANCEL PLANS JUST BECAUSE THEY FEEL LIKE IT ! FRIENDS WOULD SACRIFICE EVERYTHING FOR EACH OTHER ! FRIENDS CARE ABOUT OTHER FRIENDS FEELINGS! PLEASE ! DO THINK ABOUT IT ! I DON'T THINK THEY DESERVE A FRIEND LIKE YOU !

PS ; I'm not talking about a specific person. countless.

THE BOMB!

TEACHER'S DAY WAS AWESOME,

to those who did not come, you missed alot, seriously. bak kata ya "the best school day ever <3"

our performance was the third and while i was sitting in front with nana when we were watching the 10th performance, edward called us and said "we're doing encore" WOOOOOOO! the teachers requested us to dance again for the closing. basically we did the opening and the closing. we didnt manage to pull up the teachers but we managed to pull up the students for the encore :D thanks guys !

:D

wish 5 meranti luck for the performance tomorrow ! ;D


bisul di punggung,
jerawat dalam hidung.

ohohoh,

exams finishing soon! tomorrow! :D oh happy days. xD but teacher gave us this stupid cuti terancang program thingy, so we have to study when its our school break. sheesh, give us a break. =.='

excited because teacher's day celebration is just around the corner ;D and and just got our outfits for the performance, gila cool! x)

planning to watch movie tomorrow night, don't know if mama lets me go, :/ I'm sure she does. HAHAHA. fara knows why. xD

kakima's wedding is this saturday! :D eee, awak nak kahwin, da tak fun da. hahaha tapi saya tau kenapa awak nak kahwin *angkat kening laju laju* HAHA

cant wait to go to one utama with shar this saturday at 12. ada benda dance tu kot, najwa mesti pergi. MESTI i tell you MESTI ;D fara faraaaa! (boom boom pow) haaahaha, fara cant follow, ;P

shocking news, to people who understands, now we'll never be worlds apart, :D

backseat

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY BADIU'ZAMAN! :D

today was supposedly fun but it turned out sucky. i went to midvalley. we went to adidas to register a run thingy and bought new shoes for imran and new sleeveless for papa. damn it, najwa does not get anything, :/ what i got was mama bugging me to date the cashier because she said he was cute. psscht, not interested dude. the sales guy was okay. butt neah. still not interested. i went to the tailor hoping she could help me design my prom dress, but! haish, she cant she said she only make baju raya, pscht. so tomorrow i had to go around taman tun to find another tailor. mm prom prom. ;) since the tailor could not help me, i went to accompany papa to service his car and it was a sunny day so i stayed in atos while ford was being serviced. then there's this group of indon guys who are disturbing. winks, smiles, waves from them were very very disturbing, i tell you. it was the first time of my life, i get those from those guys infront of my parents. :O shocking. HAHA.

date

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TISHA! ;D

today is a really really great day.

i'm going to fail my economy, HAHA.

i dont have to fast anymore, :D

KRIS ALLEN WON! WOOOOOOOOO!

though i have to settle my bet with ahmad faiz :)

haahaa

my best friend was trying a new hairstyle HAHA! what do you think?? (:

1196

EXAMS LIKE !@#$%^&*

comelnya, (:

SHARIFAH ALAWIYAH ; NURFARAHIN AS'KIAH ; NURUL-NADHIRAH ; NAJWA ; NADIAH ; NURUL FARAH ATIQAH

goodie

KRIS ALLEN! <333

yeahyeahyeahyeahyeah!! you got it! :D he's in the finals! :D

gaaah, you're so hot. HAHA

bad day SHIT

today's exams were history 2 and mathematic 1. i woke up at 4 am to read history again. whatever i read, it came out and guess what. I BLANKED! :O fishticks!!!! i was so frustrated! "fail" was written all over my paper. haih, so i was targeting for mathematic. and guess what. i was at question 11 and the teacher said "30 minutes more" WHATTHEHELLLAKAN?! i was in a rush and i bang bang around 15 question. :/ darn it. stupid exam

so fara and i went to restaurant ismail for lunch. we ate Maggie soup and teh o ice, we were budgeting, pity. while we were waiting for fara's dad. we talked about jealousy. AHAHA. don't ask. then fara's dad came. fara was like "CEPAT CEPAT PAPA DA SAMPAI" i was rushing and nana's liverpool pin dropped. i don't have the time to find it. i was like "alamaaak, im going to be dead" then fara's dad parked at the side and the bus was honking. and he was so smart he didn't want to clean the backseat. so i had to clean it up before i sit on it then her dad goes "cepat fara, bus da honk da." i was rushing gila babi la kan and POOOM! my head hit the door tu yg kat atas tu. ITS DAMN PAIN I TELL YOU! my clip fell down, fara took it and her dad goes "fara cepat la!" less than a minute i touched my head BOOM! bengkak bai. besar gila benjol tu. :( i felt like crying but i don't want to make it so obvious.


when i reached home, i almost cried and went to get the ice and put it on my head and my brother felt it and he went "wooo! teruknya" yeah, then i went online, chatted with haziq and web cam for a while and he saw it and he said

haziq : first time i tgk u nangis. chill la.
najwa : belum lagi
haziq : so jap lagi nangis la tu?
najwa : yeah sakit kot
haziq : yeah tgk muka u pun i tau. so jap lagi nangis la tu? ngada
najwa : haha yeah
haziq : alolo kesian nya, type pun sebelah tangan.

i went to restaurant ismail to find nana's liverpool pin. and i found it. on the road. :D thankgod!

haha funny. after a few hours, i can still feel the pain. i'm still having headache and the benjol wont go away, :(

i felt like eating cake at secret recipe. texted a friend to ask for transport, and i think and think and think, i didn't have the mood to eat :(

that was only from morning till evening. i don't know what will happen at night. hope nothing will happen.


ass. HAHA sorry, it was just ... neah nevermind

NICE

last wednesday night around 10 pm. my mum brought me to the library parking lot and asked me to drive :O i was shocked and excited. but i was a little bit pressured because my dad is beside and my mum and imran were at the back :O but it was fun. did a couple of rounds and u-turns and reverses. HAHA COOL B) but it was auto. still its cool. :D

hotstuffs baby i need you

you're my,

WOO! i have good news and bad news.

good news is our jai ho performance got in! ;D so we can perform for teacher's day. woot woot *put your hands in the air, and wave it like you just dont care* HAHA

bad news is i am totally not prepared for my exams. :/

missing star

stand tall,

head held high,

grasp every chance i get,

walking alone

and taking the high road.

pointless hope

i have this hope that i wish it could be a miracle. its a pointless hope that i thought the past could be the future. hoping every moment of it you will cherish it forever like i would. though i miss you and i always wish you could turn back and looking right at me in the eye and feel how i feel, i know everything that we've been through and trying to make it happen again and again will be worthless. i am holding on to you forever and now i realize that keeping the ungrateful feelings, heartbreaks and precious moments i had with you is fading slowly with wasted times. i am willing to set you free.

you're everywhere

IT WOULD NOT BE RUINED,

IT WILL BE WEIRD.

AND IF ITS NOT WEIRD,

WITHOUT A DOUBT IT WILL BE RUINED.

i'm spending all my time, wasting it.

jay sean - i'm gone

[Verse1]
I don't wanna have to see you happy
I cant even bare to see you smile
Now a days I can't look in your eyes
Well I can but it takes a while, Does it show
Told a lot of white lies to hide it all
They're beginning to break me down
Though I promise it's over now

[Chorus]
I'm gone I don't blame u at all
Cuz after all the things u did for me
Like feeding my temptation
I'm gone , Girl you're better off alone
I don't want you to see
The truth in me

[Verse 2]
Try my best to keep it all together
Gonna take it back to where we were
Never been too good at keeping secrets
Give you reasons but for what it's worth
Let me goWhat the hell would make you look at me the same?
Used to say we're unbreakable
But I just went and changed it all

If I told you; could you live with that
If I told you; could you live with that
If I told you; I couldn't live with that
I couldn't live with that
No, I'd rather give you no excuses at all


[verse 3]
You gave me everything
And honestly its every fault of mine
To beg you for forgiveness just seems wrong
See leaving you is one thing but you've got to realize
Some things are best unspoken
So please don't ask me why
Oh you don't wanna know

i was touched :)

the afters - you

My heart is as frail as a dove
And my spirit is as weak as a rose
See my sorrow, feel my pain
You're my refuge, You're my reason,
My strength in this beautiful place
That's where I find God

You're in my heart, You're in my soul
You are my heaven, You're my home
You're my best friend, You're my true love
You are my treasure, You're my God

I watch as the mountains fall down
And the rivers part at Your feet
Your creation sings Your praise
Even winds obey and angels bow down
At Your beautiful voice
That's where I find God

You're in my heart, You're in my soul
You are my heaven, You're my home
You're my best friend, You're my true love
You are my treasure, You're my hope
You are my peace, You are my joy
You are my Savior, You're my God

put it behind me

how was my day today?

i went to school hoping that there's no more work so that i can study for my exam, but school works likes to pile up in my mind. i haven't done my add math project which today is the dateline. and supposedly i have to pass up my arts folio next month but encik megat wants it by monday. how am i suppose to do that? i have other work too, damn. i am screwed up. :/

i went back home at 12.45. reached home by 1. best friend, best cousin and i planned to go to the library and study together. but there are some transportation problems so we could not go. since the library plan did not work out, i planned to study at home. but best friend could not join me and best cousin wants to work on her mother's day gift. fine, i said to myself, "lets study alone today" i used the computer around 20 minutes and ate maggi cup. while eating i was watching tv. i was not really focusing on my food and pom! one drop of the soup went into my left eye. i washed my eye and got tired so i fell asleep by 2.15 till 7.30 :O i missed asar. *sigh*

this is what happened :
imran ; *knocking at the door like there's fire*
najwa ; *i got pissed off*
imran ; woi! pukul berapa nak bangun wei?! tak reti nak bangun ke? kalau imran tak kejut najwa, najwa tido sampai esok pagi.
najwa ; haa ye la najwa tau la *which i was still sleepy + pissed off*
imran ; papa and mama tade, nak mkn apa for dinner?
najwa ; tah tak kesah la. [which i dont really care because PMHH was on my mind so i felt like going out and eat]
imran ; haa ye la, BANGUN LA CEPAT!
najwa ; *bom! slammed the door*

i was trying to take a 5 minutes nap, KRING *paramore* KRING, mama called. =.='

najwa ; hello *eyes are still closed*
mama ; najwa tgh tido ke?
najwa ; haa baru bangun, knp?
mama ; mama nak balik, lepas ni nak gi badminton then nk pg karaoke,
najwa ; oh okay. [amboi, keluar tak ajak, habis tu adik nak duduk rumah sorg sorg? PMHH ;D that's all i can think of HAHA]
mama ; mama tgh drive, balik we talk. :O

and now i am stuck at the computer forever because i have alot of assignments to do ! ! seriously, being form 5 is really really hard and sucky.

probably going out for dinner, if he's well enough to take me dinner. mama gave permission but still pending. HAHA

THE TRUTH!

BEING AN SPM CANDIDATE IS VERY STRESSFUL.

GOING THROUGH 2009 IS VERY HARD.

BEING AN ONLY DAUGHTER AND NO MAID IS VERY TIRING.

stress-out

seriously, today was the audition day. and i don't see the point we auditioned today because we had a call back. so we're going to audition again on the 28th of may, the full rehearsal day and we're going to celebrate teacher's day on the 29th of may. what the hell? =.=' out of 20 groups, they just want to pick THREE! how stupid is this? this is the boring-est teacher's day. but if we get it, we'll make the best of it, i hope we get it. :D *cross fingers*


oooh! tonight is the mother-daughter movie night! aaa i'm so excited :D


oh and exam is around the corner, and i didn't even prepare myself yet. =.='

you got a piece of me!

eee! go find your own sucker!

i dont want to make things any worse

today, i was fasting. i had to fast the days that i didn't fast last year. school was okay, abit boring and kinda tired because i was fasting. so yeah. we practised our performance for teachers day and basically we were doing a show for the afternoon students. HAHA! but what the heck, we had to do it anyway. my aunt and family from penang came this morning. i saw my cute cousin. u want to know why he's cute? because his cheeks are droopy, HAHA. his cheeks are too big and heavy so his mouth is always open. HAHA, probably u don't get it, u have to see it, (:


lame update, i know. but i have to anyway.

jai hoi haha!

again, i have to do the boys job which is climb the roof and take our cat and put nyenyo back in the cage while imran is busy hanging out at rasta, pfft. and my reward is i get 3 meals a day for this entire week. that is my regular meal. pfft.

the highlight of the week ;

-parents keep on asking me who i'll bring to prom. dude ask me. HAHAHA xD
-audition for teacher's day is coming, cant wait. paila paila. HAHAHA !
-detention class saturday and sunday, probably, :(
-mother daughter movie night :D

school day

today my day was a bit interesting. we had "add math bengkel" when we are suppose to study maths. it was fun looking at cik liang explaining about add math. supposedly, i was going to help fara unpack her stuff in her new house. but she didn't move to ttdi. :( she's moving to villa damansara. which is not really a distance from her old house. =.=' its okay. hehe then we had our class practice. SUMPAH KELAKAR GILA. ahahaha! cant wait to see how its like on the day its self, till then.


:)

NOVEMBER

JANUARY

YOU ARE FUNNY, PRETTY/HANDSOME AND YOU LOVE TO HAVE FUN. YOU HAVE LOTS OF FRIENDS AND ARE REALLY POPULAR. YOU GET ALMOST EVERYTHING YOU WANT AND YOU SEEM TO ALWAYS BE SO HAPPY. YOU LOVE TO CHILL WITH YOUR FRIENDS AND MAKE THEM LAUGH.BE CAREFUL THOUGH NOT EVERYBODY LIKED YOU OUT THERE AND YOU HAVE DONE 1 OR 2 THINGS WRONG THAT MIGHT MAKE PEOPLE OUT TO GET YOU FOR IT!

FEBRUARY

YOU ARE REALLY NICE AND YOU HAVE A GREAT LIFE. YOU ARE NOT ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE ASSHOLES TO MOST OTHER PEOPLE. YOU ARE ATTRACTIVE AND WELL KNOWN. YOU GET ALL THE GUYS/GIRLS YOU WANT. YOU HAVE BEAUTIFUL EYES AND THAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOU. YOU HAVE A NICE PERSONALITY AND A STRONG SENSE OF HUMOR. BE CAREFUL THOUGH YOU ARE NOT A GOOD LISTENER AT TIMES AND YOU MIGHT NEED SOME MORE ADVICE BECAUSE THINGS MAKE COME ALONG IN YOUR LIFE THAT U REALLY NEED TO KNOW ABOUT.

MARCH

WOW YOU ARE PERFECT. YOU LOVE TO BE OUTDOORS AND WITH YOUR FRIENDS. YOU LIKE A GOOD MOVIE. YOU LOVE TO CUDDLE UP WITH YOUR BF/GF. NOBODY CAN BRING YOUR SPIRIT DOWN.YOU ARE DEFF. NOT UGLY AND HAVE PROBABLY NEVER BEEN MADE FUN OF IN YOUR LIFE. WHEN IT COMES TO FRIENDS YOU HAVE A LOT. YOU HAVE A GREAT PERSONALITY AND ARE EASY TO GET ALONG WITH.BE CAREFUL WITH YOUR CHOICES THOUGH YOU MAY HAVE ALREADY MADE SOME BAD ONES AND I'M SURE AS HELL YOU DO NOT WANT ANYMORE MISTAKES.

APRIL

YOU ARE CHEERFUL AND EVERYBODY WHO KNOWS U LOVES U. U CANT HELP BEING LOVED. U GET ALONG WITH PRACTICALLY EVERYBODY NOT SO MUCH WITH YOUR PARENTS THOUGH. NO MATTER WHERE U GO EVERYBODY STOPS TO LOOK AT YOUR AMAZING FACE. U LOVE TO DO ACTIVE THINGS AFTER A WHILE U GET BORED SITTING AROUND THE HOUSE EATING AND WATCHING TV ALL DAY. BUT LOOKS CAN BE DECEIVING. U OFTEN FIND HIM/HER AND THEY MAY NOT BE YOUR TYPE. VENTURE OFF IN THE WORLD. THERE ARE PLENTY OF OTHER FISH IN THE SEA. FIND THE ONE U BELONG TOO

MAY

U HAVE A GREAT TAN AND A NICE SMILE. U R IN THE POPULAR CROWD AND LOVE TO BE AROUND PEOPLE. U HAVE A NICE PERSONALITY AND U GET ALONG WITH EVERYBODY BUT NOT ALL DA TIME WITH YOUR PARENTS. U HAVE BEAUTIFUL EYES AND A COMPLEXION THAT IS UNBEARABLE. EVERYTHING ABOUT U IS PERFECT. U GET EVERY GUY/GIRL U WANT. YOU'RE LOVING EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUR LIFE AND PEOPLE ARE LOVING EVERYTHING ABOUT U. BE CAREFUL THOUGH NOT EVERYBODY IS PERFECT LIKE U. DONT JUST GO OUT WITH SOMEBODY U THINK IS EXTREMELY HOT. TAKE SOME TIME TO GET TO KNOW THEM AND SEE IF THEY ARE FIT FOR U.

JUNE

WOW U R GORGEOUS. EVERYBODY SEEMS TO LIKE U BUT THE PEOPLE WHO DONT FEAR U. U R TOUGH AND HATE TO BE LOOKED AT THE WRONG WAY. U LOVE YOUR FRIENDS BUT NOT SO MUCH YOUR PARENTS. U HAVE BEAUTIFUL UNIQUE COLORED EYES. U HAVE THE PERFECT BODY WHICH MAKES GUYS/ GIRLS FALL IN LOVE WITH U. U WERE BORN READY. U LOVE TO BE ACTIVE BUT SOMETIMES JUST LIKE TO RELAX AT HOME. U LOVE TO HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS AT THE MALL OR THE MOVIES. U GET EVERYBODY U WANT TO LIKE . BE CAREFUL THOUGH SOME DAY U MAY BE HEARTBROKEN. LOOK OUT FOR THE GUY/ GIRL WHO WANTS U BUT JUST FOR YOUR LOOKS OR CHARMS. JUST KEEP LOOKING AND U WILL FIND THE PERFECT MATE.

JULY

AMAZING. U R EVERYTHING ANYBODY WANTS. THE PERFECT BODY, SMILE, EYES, AND HAIR. U LOVE TO HAVE FUN ESPECIALLY WITH YOUR FRIENDS. U HATE TO BE BORED AND W/E U GET THE CHANCE TO DO SOMETHING U INSTANTLY TAKE IT. UR ALWAYS LAUGHING OR MAKING OTHER PEOPLE LAUGH. WHEN PEOPLE SEE U AT SCHOOL THEY ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING NICE TO SAY ABOUT THE WAY U LOOK. NOT EVERYBODY IS PERFECT THOUGH. ONE DAY U WILL FIND THAT ONE PERSON WHO THINKS U MEAN NOTHING SO DONT GET HEARTBROKEN WHEN THEY CALL U A NAME BECAUSE U ARE NOT USED TO IT. THEY ARE JUST A BUNCH OF LIES BECAUSE THEY'RE JEALOUS OF U. U WILL FIND THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE SOON.

AUGUST

MY MY MY LOOK AT U. U R ATTRACTIVE AND HAVE A BEAUTIFUL SMILE. EVERYBODY KNOWS U AND ADORES U. NO MATTER WHERE U GO EVERYBODY WANTS TO TALK TO. U GIVE GOOD ADVICE AND PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS TALKING TO U ABOUT THERE PROBLEMS. U R TRUSTWORTHY, LOYAL, AND A GOOD FRIEND, U HAVE GOOD RELATIONSHIPS AND ARE VERY ROMANTIC. YOU HAVE LOOKS, A GREAT PERSONALITY, AND CHARM. SOME DAY U WILL BE AN IMPORTANT SUCCESSFUL PERSON WITH A WONDERFUL FAMILY. BUT FOR A WHILE STICK TO THAT GUYS THATS SEES ALL THESE THINGS. DONT BE AFRAID TO TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE. GO ON AND TAKE CHANCES, U WILL HE WANTS YOU AS BAD AS U WANT HIM.

SEPTEMBER

LUCKY! U GET EVERYTHING, AND ANYBODY U WANT. U HAVE A GREAT LIFE, GREAT FRIENDS, AND A GREAT PERSONALITY. NO WONDER WHY EVERYBODY LIKES U. U LOVE TO PARTY AND HAVE A GREAT TIME. U HATE BEING BORED AND ARE ALWAYS DOING SOMETHINGS FUN. U R DEFF. NOT FAT. U HAVE GREAT RELATIONSHIPS AND ALWAYS GET GREAT BF'S/GF'S. NEVER LET YOUR GUARD DOWN THOUGH. THERE ARE ASSHOLES IN THE WORLD WHO ARE ALWAYS TRYING TO BRING DOWN EVEN THE MOST GREATEST PERSON LIKE U. DONT LET LITTLE THINGS BRING U DOWN, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF.

OCTOBER

EVERYBODY SEEMS TO LOVE U. U R FUNNY, GREAT LOOKING, WELL KNOWN, AND VERY NICE. U MAKE FRIENDS EASILY AND ARE NOT AN ASSHOLE. U HATE LAYING AROUND THE HOUSE ALL DAY ESPECIALLY ON THE WEEKENDS. U LOVE TO HAVE A GREAT TIME AND LOVE CHILLING WITH YOUR FRIENDS. U GET PRACTICALLY EVERYBODY U WANT. U HAVE THE LOOKS AND THE CHARM. PEOPLE ARE OFTEN JEALOUS OF U BUT U CANT HELP IT. U WERE BORN WITH IT. BE CAREFUL THOUGH U DONT WANT YOUR GREAT LIFE TO END SO SOON. DONT LET A GUY/ GIRL BRING U DOWN. LIVE A LITTLE AND LOOK BEYOND THE LITTLE THINGS.

NOVEMBER

WOW U R ONE HELL OF A THING. EVERYBODY CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT U. U HAVE THE PERSONALITY, LOOKS, AND THE CHARM TO BE EVERY GUYS/GIRLS DREAM WIFE/HUSBAND. EVERYBODY IS JEALOUS OF U THEY JUST DONT SHOW IT. U HAVE A BUNCH OF FRIENDS WHO LOVE U. U R THE LEADER OF YOUR GROUP AND EVERYBODY COMES TO U FOR ADVICE OR EVEN THE LITTLE THINGS. U GET EVERY GIRL/GUY U WANT. DONT BE SO EASY THOUGH. MAKE YOURSELF MORE OF A CHALLENGE. U WILL COME ACROSS THAT PERFECT PERSON U HAVE BEEN DREAMING FOR. LOOK HARDER AND U WILL FIND THEM.

DECEMBER

WELL WELL U R DEFF. THE PERFECT PRESENT FOR ANY GUY/ GIRL. EVERYTHING ABOUT U IS TO DIE FOR. U R VERY NICE AND LOVE TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS. U R POPULAR AND NICE TO PRETTY MUCH EVERYBODY THAT IS Y EVERYBODY LIKES U. U GET THOUGHT OF A LOT BY GUYS/ GIRLS. THEY WANT U BUT BE CAREFUL SOME ARE JUST THERE TO BREAK YOUR HEART SOON U WILL FIND THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE. NEVER GIVE UP.

SOULMATES :]

i will always remember this day, which is the 21/4/2009. today is the soulmates day which we the girls are suppose to celebrate, but we didnt because of things.

today, i went to sunway college. finally met rashad again, [faiz's cousin]. then i had to walk up down the stairs, 5 floors ok!

today i went to watch a movie, with 11 other people. which are ya, kiki, raes, razlan, ikmal, syazwan, afiq, faiz, haikal, nana, izet. we watched "coming soon" sumpah bodoh cerita tu, HAHA i was suppose to seat at D but went down to H to sit with afiq, ya, kiki and faiz. :)

today, i bought mcd's fries and faiz bought cheese burger. so nana and afiq joined us to sit inside. i noticed that there were workers infront of the door talking while the door is opened. when they went it, i didnt know that the door was closed. so when i wanted to go outside to offer the others fries, i was walking and wasnt really paying attention that the door was closed, i just walked straight and BOOM! i banged on the door. my precious fries fell, faiz, nana and afiq laughed like hell, practically everyone was laughing even those who are outside. HAHAHA! it was so damn funny, and i had headache for a few hours. i banged on the glass door hard. seriously, :/ and ikmal said that i was so scared after watching the movie and i banged on the door, =.=' i was the dummy who was walking without being careful


it was a day to remember, i had fun.

selfless?

i feel my sweet memories are fading with time. i'm not sure if thats what i want but i guess i cant be stuck in the past right. somehow i feel like i am too young to worry. i should've done something to make the situation better but its just good as it is.

it is not easy

i cant always stick to the present, i have to think what's best for me and what to do to have a good and healthy life. i cant pretend that i am fine. i have to feel fine to tell everyone that i am fine and i am normal. usually i have feelings. well right now i feel nothing. its abnormal. so i guess i cant have a regular life now. i have to do what i think is right. what i think is right at this very moment is to leave everything i had behind and start taking baby steps to strive for the best, i an sorry.

all hail the heartbreaker

dont go worrying about me, its not like i think about you constantly. maybe i do, but that shouldnt affect your life anymore.

probably i was just thinking how could i get this far, without "this"

reason of stress

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now that is my seat, table, position on the 18th of november - 7th of december for SPM!

see you there people. (:

homygod

today is a memorable day because i just found out that even though you've hate someone so much for the past few years, one day everyone will unite again. today 3 enemies just talked to each other sincerely and they dont feel like they hate each other.


sometimes its a good thing that you learn to put your anger and your grudges away. :)

cant this be any obvious?

life is what you make it,
no matter how bad things may be,
but every decision and every step you take,
will change your whole life.
so unlike what you've seen,
so unsure but it seems,
feel so out of place,
dont want to stay.
i have nothing against you,
not trying to change you,
please understand how i am,
and know that,


i dont belong here.

stop !

moody, messy, restless, senseless

alone

so this week i'm working in VADS. B1 and B2 are suppose to work together for kelly services, but vads are stupid and jealous that kelly have 2 temporaries so they took B1 and B2 was left alone, and guess what if B1 left B2 for 5 minutes to go to the toilet and B2 already have a guys number, what will happen now?! :O b1!!! mommay needs you! :(

yeah, thats work.

sometimes,

You tell me you're in love with me,
That you can't take your pretty eyes away from me,
It's not that I don't want to stay,
But every time you come too close ,
I move away,
I wanna believe in everything that you say,
Cause it sounds so good,
But if you really want me,
move slow,
There's things about me you just have to know,
Sometimes I run,
Sometimes I hide,
Sometimes I'm scared of you,
But all I really want is to hold you tight,
Treat you right,
Be with you day and night,
Baby all I need is time,
I don't wanna be so shy,
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why,
Hope that you will wait for me,
You'll see that, you're the only one for me,
Just hang around and you'll see,
There's nowhere I'd rather be,
If you love me, trust in me,
The way that I trust in you.

please come back

to : NURUL - AFIQAH BINTI LOKMAN :D

sayaaaaaaaangku afiqah, please come back home. i really really miss you. i have alot to talk about and i miss you so much. :'(


afiqah is a really cool person. she is 21 years old but she is such a cute, small and petite person. she's good in everything she does. she love arts and she loves trying something new. afiqah is a really hard head person, but that does not mean she does not have a good heart. her heart is very fragile and i would not do anything to hurt her. when i was 8 she was 12, we had our rough times but in the end we worked things out and now she considered me as her sister, :) thank you afiqah. eventhough we had our ups and downs, i still love you, that does not change. but whats changing now is the feeling that i miss you so much. it grows more and more each day i think of you, maybe im not used to not having you around. you are special because you will always be there for me and you will always support me. eventhough you were trying to solve your own problem. the tears you cry the cupboard you punched, i learned every single thing of it. the most important thing that i learned from you is never give up in life and just strive for the best. when i think of you, i think of the quote "dont be afraid to be great". wherever you go, you will always shine brightly like a shiny star. everything you touch, eventhough its broken you will make it better. every moment you go through, you will never give up and you always fight for your rights. i can really see that you really really cherish your life and you want to live your life to the fullest. i know, we can only live once. i love every single thing about you. people may say that nothing is perfect. to me, you are perfect. the things you say, the things you do. somehow when i am around you, you made me a feel like i am a better person. the mistakes you made, does not show that you are not perfect. the things you do, your attitude, shows me that you are perfect. i love you afiqah.

i promise you, i will take care of your darling sister, nana.

18/2/09

this is us. zikri, nana, najwa, zul, dinesh, lis and mice plus pn adyani. this picture is taken when it was our sports day. i loooike this picture eventhough we all look exhausted. lawa,

peace *buat kaki*

english

one has to sacrifice to give a gleam of hope to another

please

i am not the one who is in the middle of the ocean trying to pick to drown or to suffer waiting for someone to save me. you are. so you pick which would you choose.

three muskaaateers

HAHA this is us! :D najwa , syaq and nana. i love you girls. 3 cousins will stay best cousins forever. hehe love you love you love you * buat kaki *

fifty four

HAPPY BIRHTDAY DEAR BASIR/SAB/ACHE/PAPA :D



hey hey okay on the left is the first picture of the suprise birthday party night :D lets start on the left, there's NAJWA , RAYRAY , NUFFNUFF , SYAQ , MEMEY , IMRAN , PUTERA AND BUD. nana was M.I.A. so najwa and syaq da jadi hitam legam because of sports day. =.='

the suprise party started at 10.30 and ended at 11.45. there were uncle naje, aunty nurul and family, aunty pip and family and my family. we had choc indulgence cake for the birthday cake. we had soft drinks for drinks. haha. papa got a t shirt form uncle bee's family. unfortunately, papa didnt get anything from his family, but i will give him something. only memey and putera werent family but its okayh they are considered as family friends. :D the party went well but uncle loke was not feeling so well so they had to go back home early and send uncle loke to the hsptl. i hate that place. :/ anyway thankyou people for coming, very much appreciated.

MY HERO, MY ULTIMATE MAN OF MY LIFE, MY ROLE MODEL . MY LOVING DAD! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU BASIR BIN SHAMSUDDIN ;D

dead or alive

i dont care. HAHA jahat jahat.

ladies and gents, i have something to tell you.

i am basically turning to water. from fire to water. a big step huh? well, thats true and thats the truth. this year, i've transformed into something new which people may take advantage of me because water usually dont give a damn, really. let me tell you something about water.

water is the type of person who goes with the flow. they rather sacrifice their feelings than fight about it just to make everything around them happy and crystal clear so that there wont be any complications. if they are not satisfied with something, they wont do anything about it but they will let things fall into place. some of them might show some symptoms that they are not okay but what they are actually trying to say is "i dont care what happens, as long as everything is okay" water easily get hurt but they would just keep it to themselves or tell their closed ones. water usually is the type who is calm, abit sensitive and have a good memory. they would not revenge on anything, somehow they will keep the grudge until its really ready to be left and they always remember what happened to them. they are like computers which saves anything and even if u delete it, it will be in the recycle bin.


i feel some part of me still CAN be water, but right now i just chose not to. it will make my world turn into a disaster and i rather let it be ruined by itself as long as i know i dont make the wrong choices and i ruined it myself.

truth be told

is im getting fatter and fatter everyday. NOOO! :O its not a bad thing, buuuut! i have to change my wardrobe. i was getting ready to visit uncle loke at the hospital earlier, i put on my skinnies, and i cant button it up. xO sigh, i love that skinny. if i cant fit into that, there's too many jeans / skinnies i cant fit. haih. i have to pass it down to nana. :( this is giving me hell. AHA! sebok pula lagu tu.

anyway, uncle loke is free now! wooo! congratulations *dong dong dong cheng & buat kaki* aha only closed ones would understand. x)

and and and guess whatttt! my mum wants to teach me how to drive tonight. WOOOHOOO! ;D *buat kaki banyak kali* if i could get that license after SPM, im going out every single night. i want to make a list who am i going out with after SPM. hahaha ! lameeeee


last truth to be told, i miss you. seriously.

fckarama fishsticks

i personally think that the world is cruel. day by day things are getting worse. the amount of people dying a day, the heatness, the problems that causes me to stop me from having a good life to a disaster. not really disaster but its not good, thats for sure. lets start with ;


A ; A is my bestfriend but A switched school and that made me miss A like crazy. day by day A is keeping the distance. i dont knw why. A does not comunicate with me anymore. i really want A and i be like what we used to be. but somehow i feel like thats not going to happen. so i will just try to make things better between us and if A doesnt want it, i rather not waste my time thinking that A is my all that.


B ; B is one of my bestfriends. but B is not always there for me like B used to. B used to support me in everything i do but right now, B is having her own problems i understand but that doesnt change the fact that we are BESTFRIENDS. again, i feel like there's a gap between us.


C ; C is my everything, i dont know wht would i do if i lose C. C is important. C has been through alot and i really really understand how C feels. unfortunately, i really hate seeing C like this, but she is .. and so am i. i used to be like others who thinks that he is a jerk and so so. after going through everything that C has been through, i really really hope that others wont still be like that and it will happen to me. i love you C


D ; D is a must thing that i really hate. even though its not now. i really hate it because its causing me soo soo much trouble. D is just a thing where everyone have to go through it no matter what. D is so important to some people. it is to me too but when i think back D is just a thing where its up to us to do it well or flunk it. most probably D will give us stress and pressure. somehow D is never a good reason to give just to hide what really matters. because D IS SPM!

E ; E is a personality. which is suppose to be good i think. its from a big fire in a building that was caused by a lighter to a big and deep deep waterfall. its good that i am turning to a waterfall, but sometimes water cant beat the fire because the fire is getting bigger and bigger, do u understand? i hope u do. its very clear.

F ; F is just a thing where its considered too late but you think you can make it through, go figure

well that is whats going on to me now. just live with the cruel harsh world and just go through the obstacles that i see.


loves;

world

hello world! im sorry i havent been updating my blog. lately i've been busy with school and my mum just paid the internet. we just had our sports day. trust me it sucks. :/ i'll update the pictures soon. anyway lets update shall we?

school sucks and busy busy busy with arts as my extra subj. love life is good. as always. my beautiful babies are dealing with their own problem. i pity them. sorry babies. :( my cutest baby just had an operation. and she just ate nasi goreng which is really hot. nice right? she cant do that. and my cousin who has the same birthday as me just went out of the hospital. and now my fav uncle is in the hospital. suprisingly their room is side by side. heh. so my first term exam is coming soon. so i have to struggle to keep up with my studies. sports day : haih. kadet lost. it sucks because its not fair. :/ but on the bright side i wont the gold medal for my long jump? cool eyh? *angkat kening* HAHA thats it for now. i'll update when its something.


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