anonymous

never once in my life, you support me or you were right behind me when my life falls apart. never. it hurts so much to see how important all these decisions that i have to make and you were not there. you always and will always put me down. you were never proud of me in what i do. when i said i wanted to be a fashion designer, you said "you cant even sew" and when i said i think i want to be a dancer, you said "you cant dance. you can just free style" sakit tau tak! you always prefer when someone else does it, not even me. not once you said "i'm proud of you" or "i like it when najwa does it" it hurts alot to see when you like someone else better. i always wanted to be the best in your eyes at all times. but it seems i cant. i'm not capable of being the best. i cant forget about this because you will always be in my life and you will never ever escape from my life. its just hard to accept the fact that you cant appreciate what i've done and you cant accept me for who i really am. i will remember all these stuffs that i've been through till i die, sadness will never end. so, i've heard.

t-a-i-k

exams are like shits, really! i hate exams. teruk gila, my mum said i'm going to be grounded if i fail one single paper, and guess what. i'm going to be grounded soon, i'm going to fail atleast 3 paper, thats for sure. the exams are hard. and accounts was really frustrating! i didnt even have enough time to do the exam. i think i lost almost 30 marks just like that because i didnt set enough time on each question, argh! ekonomi is also the same, shit shit shit. the question is like up and down from side to side, haa like that. but luckily i can do it, but i think i'll fail too. oh and dont let me start with ADDMATH, if there is a word which is worse than shit, i'd use it but tade. so yeah. addmath was 90 marks, paper 2. and i only answered 5 out of 12. i dont think what i did is even right. argh damn it! addmath, accounts and ekonomi. F-A-I-L! i feel like shit right now, test was shit!

SHITTINGS ! ! !

rumour worthy

today the day itself,

out of all those days it was today,

that hits me,

that particular word means so much to me,

eventhough its not true,

i have no idea why is it so important,

but that word hurts me alot,

i mean alot.

it annoys me like a bug,

it felt like hell,

wondering why do all this things happen in life,

even the closest ones to you can do such thing,

if that thing is true,

why is the person is still my friend?

i dont get it,i know that,

the world doesnt revolve around me,

its not all about me,

i know that.. but im part of,

those people living their lives,

in this same round perfect little world.

being hated is just the same,

as hating someone,

spreading rumours and tons of new rumours,

does not mean,

you are the person,

who everyone likes,

who everyone thinks that you are popular,

why do people want to complicate their own lives?

i know "put some spice in life",

but thats not the way,

getting attention from a bad alley,

is like choosing the wrong path of a great life,

sure, i can say,

what goes around comes around,

but it makes me wonder,

day by day,

when you spread rumours,

are you thinking that,

does the victim deserves it?

or

is the victim just a rumour worthy?

situasi. :)

hello! tuition was cancelled. so kak fiqah, kak nana and kak remp and i went to ou to go grab some lunch and jalan2. so we went, i wanted to follow because i want to fulfil my destiny! which is eating yummy foods at ou, i ate laksa at marks and i ate big big SUPERSTAR CALRS JR! YA ALLAH! SEDAP GILA. but it was tyring. it was big and delicious and the cashier was really disturbing and org org belakang mcm b.a.n.g.a.n.g. haaa, anyway my 50 $$ was gone for the whole 3 hours, i ate and shop. i had to shop, its soo tempting. i bought 2 longsleeves, one brown and one lavender. lawa tau. i saw alot of PMR people there, ye la. pmr da habis kan. i saw that ehem, omg that ehem is sooo cute.it was a big big big time BONUS and in the end i was frustrated because of the fact that i didnt see him after that, kak nana did. =.=' i should have followed her to the outer shop thingy. haish. tape. i can see him next time, if there is a next time. heh.


btw, EHEM IS REALLY CUTE.

big hug small kiss small hug big kiss

for good living,

take two heaping cups of patience,

one heart full of love,

two handfuls of generosity,

a dash of laughter,

one head full of understanding,

sprinkle generously with kindness,

add plenty of faith - mix well,

spread over a period of a lifetime,

and serve everyone you meet,

if everyboby followed this advise, who can disagree, the world would be a happier place in which to be.

big hug small kiss small hug big kiss,

my heart skipped a beat

hey, i have a story to tell about what happened yesterday, i didnt have the chance to online yesterday so yeah.

yesterday the plan was go to fakhrie's house around lunch time to raya raya and then off to jambu's at 5.30. unfortunately i hate being late because when i'm late, people who are already there will look at me like "whoo is that?" haa, thts why, then syaq ni la. lambat sgt. =.=' ok! not the point, we were there, lepak lepak, i ate nasi briyani i think. SEDAP OK! then i was suppose to give this ehem ehem a belated birthday present, somehow from the outside i was brave to see ehem ehem, but actually its a big NONO not ready. everytime i see a boldie, i'll go "is that ehem ehem?" and trust me, my heart was like about to explode, i was SCARED to death, i dont know why, i even asked my cousins to feel my chest and they went "chill najwa". my heart was beating like a i dont know how to describe it. in the end ehem ehem didnt come, (as usual). then i saw ex ehem ehem, the wrong ehem ehem came, i was scared too because that is the only ex ehem ehem who i'm not friends with, so i stayed inside the house the whole time, and being inside the house was very scary and embarrassing too. there was this guy who was like "i want that one, can i have your phone number" yeah, my face turned red everytime he asks a question, then everyone went "haa najwa blushing" =.=' great. i tried everything i could to skip that part, but it was funny though, he's not bad looking,just fine. so i had to give abe the gift to give it to ehem ehem. that kinda pisses me off, for some reason. =.='

then off to jambu's and the first person i saw was another EHEM, so it was awkward too, but its fine. then i met jambu's parents and all. the food was nice, JAMBU MASAK KAN. haa, i told jambu that the rendang is good. he said "i know, i masak" i said in a sarcastic way "ooh, apa you bubuh?" after 10 seconds he replied "rendang" we were all laughing like shit, HAHA sumpah kelakar ok. with jambu's face like this all the time " =.=' " mmg lawak la. ok then, the girls [nana, syaq, fara and najwa] helped wash the dishes and jambu said he will give me rm 1.30 for my pay, pscht sikit gila. =.='

then, we went to rasta at 8. it was going so well after all the talks and laughters and everything, we put some sense in fara's head. and we kinda pissed her off after 2 hours, HAHA using her weakness which is her bestfriend. shh, okok, then my cousin came to rasta with another *cough* ehem, sumpah it was like the most weirdest day i've been through, and syaq was upset why i didnt tell her the secret. come on, its a secret.

it was weird, the day was totally and unplanned weird. if there's a word which is beyond weird i'd use it, but yeah,

i think no one can handle this type of day.

big hug small kiss small hug biss kiss.

reality check

TODAY! today sucks just like yesterday, but today is worse. my day was just fine and happy until the night arrives. i dont know why my night was such a loser disaster. i went to the gym at 7.30 pm and i felt so out of place because i was the youngest and smallest person there, though i like to watch luciano teach them dancing. thats not the point! when i was walking into the gym, i saw this big giant signboard says "WADE ROBSON DANCE WORKSHOP IN MALAYSIA" and i was so excited. come on, who wouldnt be? Its WADE ROBSON! unfortunately i could not afford it because the fee is rm 250. my money will be gone just like that, and i think its worth it but my mom thinks the opposite. she said "NO! i can buy you alot of things with that rm 250" and i said "really?" and she did the 'uh-oh" face and my brother said "HAA! padan muka, sape suro ckp mcm tu" i know she's not going to do that. so thats one of the turn offs for tonight, then i went to fatty crab for dinner, it was delicious and i enjoy my dinner. when i reached home, i felt like "yak yak-ing" but i didnt, so my tummy is growling loudly till my brother asked "what was that?" it was embarrassing but we're family, we're used to it so its okay. back to the point, i was surfing the net and chatting with my friends, then suddenly my guy friend chatted with me, he was just being too straight forward and totally not true, he said i was a player, just because i liked 3 guys this year. =.=' its just LIKE. gosh and it wasnt at the same time, if i get that as a player, i think everyone in this world is a player, eish! 'player' is a sensitive word. he doesnt even know whats going on and doesnt know the whole story, he judged me like i was in a player competition "who's the best player in the world?"GOD! reality check, i didnt even get serious with a guy this year and i was labelled already? haih, my advise, DONT EVER PUT YOUR HOPES UP FOR ANYTHING, THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL GET WHEN YOU DIDNT GET WHAT YOU HOPE YOU'D GET, A RUINNED DAY!

the only wish i need to come true right now is,
"i wish now and forever i want my days to be great and will not be ruinned at the END OF THE DAY!"


big hug small kiss small hug big kiss =*

suckysuckrightsuck

somehow today my day is NOT REALLY THAT GOOD! ps; I'M SORRY IF I JUST BURST MY THROAT TO YOU OR BITTER PILLS CAME OUT FROM MY MOUTH, THE DAY SUCK!

always and forever my baby! <3

these are my awesome girls and i love them to death! ;D

fara ; nana ; ya ; NAJWA ; wawahere's the thing, these are my wonderful friends who i'll cherish forever and trust me, nothing i mean NOTHING can seperate us.

fara ; nurfarahin a'skiah binti abdul hamid.

fara, she's 16 years old. she was born on the 20th of SEPTEMBER in 1992. she was born fair, but i dont know whats wrong and what happened until she became chocolate, its not an insult though, its a good chocolate. i think she just love the sun too much. we talk alot, i mean ALOT! she's the only person who i can get really crazy with. any time, any day, any moment. we will always be crazy and full with joy and laughter. you people should really get to know her and stop judging her by the book. she is a really really nice and friendly girl once you start to know her. she is always happy and full with predictable things. she likes to laugh and show off her cute dimples. its really hard to see her get mad. she's single by the way, HA HA! soon, NOT ANYMORE. haha! kidding. she has a good personality and when she's hyper, she's hyper. most people judge her by the first impression. please dont, she doesnt deserve that. she deserves a good life, great friends and someone who can treat her right by not breaking her heart. sure, she used to be this and that, its a real big bigfoot step to change, and for your information, she is trying as hard as she can. fara is the type of person who does not hold grudges, she's a virgo ffor crying out loud, virgo does not hold grudges or ever be grumpy. some. sure she doesnt like some people but she never hates a person. except for that one particular person. i mean that person is a real trouble maker and asking for a black eye. anyway this farahin is also a loving and caring person. OH OH! she can be a good nurse too, not a good doctor but a nurse. she knows how to take care of a person eventhough its a girl. she's independent. byy, im sorry if i ever hurt you, i know i do and sorry for all the bitter and bad stuffs i said to you. basically we've been friends for 2 years and its still going, our friendship is like paper and glue, it will never be seperated. she's my coco puding :)

nana ; nurul - nadhirah binti lokman

nana, she is 16 too. she was born on the 5th of SEPTEMBER in 1992.she has big eyes, really big. we are friends since we're babies. we're not friends, we're cousins. we do everything together, trust me everything. talk, laugh, smile, bathe, shopping. everything, we're just too close and im so scared to lose her as a friend nor cousin. everywhere i go, she must must be there and where she goes, i'll promise her, i'll follow her. we've been watching each others back for years and i would never jeopardize the love we share, the moments we spent together for anything, not even for a boy. she is always quiet and she has a crazy side too. and you would not like it when she gets mad. she's fierce. she can only get crazy when she's with me. we tell everything to each other. cute, very cute, a very nice girl and she has a fragile heart. very fragile. eventhough she's small, she knows how to take care of herself, she is a really strong and a tolerative person. she's too skinny though, she needs to eat alot, but she's strong. not emotionally, but physically. she deserves nothing but the best. she really do deserve it. she is not the type of person who just let it out. she keeps her feelings to herself, thats nana. she is not predictable and she's full with suprises. she's a keeper too. oh oh and this i must say, she's weird, dont ask why, but she is. and i love her to death, not a single this can seperate us. we are too attached to be broken. she's my boogums :)

ya ; nadiah binti mohd sabri

ya, she was born on the 02nd of OCTOBER in 1992. she is a petite yet the loudest among us all. she likes to laugh alot, i mean alot. she is such a nice and wonderful girl. nadiah is the person i admire the most. she has a wonderful and great life, i dont care if she does not know that. she's going to know it soon enough. she is really smart, her grades are always up up high the sky and she is so darn lucky that she has a great boy who really loves and knows how to take care of her which is the love of her life, hairilazmy. dude, you better take care of her or i'll cut you! nadiah ni kan, she likes to talk alot, she likes to listen to, but i think she prefers talking more than listening. she tells me everything and so do i. ya, she will always be the person who i can count on and who will always be there when i need somone. she is the kind of person who i will always look up to. she deserves everything good in this world. we've been friends since standard 6. but we've been bestfriends since we're 14 years old. i will love and take care of you just like you did till the end of our friendship. :) she's my hunnybun! :)

wawa ; nur farah atiqah binti mohd supian

wawa, she was born on the 22nd of AUGUST in 1992. she is my bestfriend ever! she is the type of person who keeps her feelings to herself and she's a keeper and she's been single for a really long time. boys, line up! x) wawa is so so so so unpredictable. you can never know what she can really do. she may look arrogant but she is a really nice girl once you get to know her. i tell everything to her, somehow she just chooses not to tell me. i dont understand and i wonder why. i really dont know why, but i think she can be the person who i will always have a shoulder to cry on and i think that she can be the real bestfriend i can ever wish for! wawa ni kan, she is really cute when she does her mulut strawberry. she is such a sweetheart. she's not a loner but she just choose to be quiet, we've been friends for 4 years and we've been bestfriends for 3 years. im sorry for all the things i've done or said that might have hurt you but i want you to remember, eventhough we're far apart and i dont always talk to you i will always love you and i promise you no one can ever replace you in my heart as a real bestfriend.wawa is a real cutie cupcake too :)

shar ; sharifah alawiyah

shar, she was born on the 20th of APRIL in 1992. she is the queen ! all hair shar! :D she is such a sweetheart and she is a good friend. she's such a pain in the ass too, HAHA! kidding. she can be. she is the type of friend who i can always talk to, she was always there for me and i hope she still is. we've known each other since standard 5. but we've been friends since we're 13 years old and we've been bestfriends since we're 14. i will get lost in school if she wasnt there for me. i love her and i promise i will always be there for you and take care of you just like you were there for me and took care of me, through thick and thin, we've been through alot and we are such a good team to always find a way to sort it all out. she's my sweetie. :)

attention! these are the people who i will always be there to take care and to listen to them. i would do anything to spend time with them and i would do anything to keep them always and forever. i love you girls to death! <3

"gue cinta sama lu"

big kiss small hug big hug small kiss. =*

a blast experience! (:

on second day of raya which was 02/10/2008. we had nothing to do and no where to go, so my uncle [pakchak] decided to do a photoshoot, of ME. he told my dad "takpa, kalau diaorg tak buleh bangun, takpa" but my dad forced me to wake up, and i did. we went there in two cars, so the oldies one car and the teens in the other. while we were on our way, i put my shades on and continue sleeping because i slept at 1 oclock the night before. so, when i wake up. my face was "sembab" i got scolded because i was not suppose to sleep in the car because my dad was scared that my face wont be pretty in the pictures, and my mum [the makeup artist] did a little thingy magic, she put a little make up on me, so yeah.

the photoshoot starts at 8.30 am and finishes at 11.30. gosh it was tiring. eventhough its just taking pictures, i had to walk here and there to find great spots for the picture taken. its kinda embarrassing because the people who were jogging and brisk walking were looking, they stopped for a few mins and then they continue what they were doing. it was like a real photoshoot like i was a real model. then there was this one chinese guy stopped by, he was a director, he asked my uncle "who is she?is she a real model?" my uncle answered "she's my niece". he gave some tips, it was a funny moment though.

there were 3 destinations.

- on the rock and near that area

- a small garden beside the big open space

-the river

while we were at the second destination, there was this one cute kid whos name is mas. he was looking at me while i was posing, so my cousin said "go, go join her" and he came, and i took pictures with him, gosh he has great eyes. his eyes were blue in colour, he got the perfect eyes, i can drool over his eyes for days. *still drooling* xD guess how many pictures did my uncle take? 1000 ++, cool huh? here's some pictures.

meet Mas, ;]

, swish swish

sepet, orkid and jason x)

tiger pose,

scrunchycrunch

what, i dont take orders. xO

simple smile ;]

K-U-Z-C-O. kuzco kuzco! GOGO!

monkey! auh!

aummmm!

haha!

after the whole photoshoot thingyamagic, i asked my dad "so, whats my reward?" he said "how about 50 cent per hour ?" i gave him the im-not-that-cheap-face. he said "okok! we go eat laksa and cendol" gosh the laksa was delicious, it was a very busy day and a busy road but a bowl of laksa and cendol, it was worth it! ;D buttt!! im still not that cheap hokay!

big hug, small kiss, small hug, big kiss. =*

i'm sorry, i'm an ass

i feel like shit now, so basically, i'm sorry and i'm an ass. i kept on forgetting my friends birthdays. such a loser because as a bestfriend, i'm suppose to be the first to wish but najwa is the same old najwa who keeps on forgetting people's birthdays, im sorry you guys. i dont know whats going on with me this year, its kinda weird because i've never forget my friends birthdays, okok! i promise, i'll make it up to you guys, i, najwa binti basir will never forget my friends birthdays again!

1001 apologies to :-
- suasiyana listariya
- sharifah alawiyah
- nur farah atiqah
- nurul - nadhirah
- nadiah

especially nadiah, i'm sorry byy, i promised you that i wont forget your birthday right? well, sorry for the late wish, i know 19:35 wont be as good as 00:00. but atleast i wished you right? ehe, sorry by! anyway I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU GIRLS SOOOO MUCH! ;D

big kiss, small hug, small kiss, big hug, =*

HELLO ! ;]

hee, hello! ok soo, this is my first time doing this thing that you people do. heh, anyway my name is najwa binti basir as stated in IC. i am going to be 16 years old on this 02nd of november 2008. that date is very important, put it in your head and remember it forever. i'm the youngest in the gang and i bet the gang loves me so much because im the youngest. ;P okok i'm crapping. so basically i'm still young and still in high school and just living my life. ooh ooh! i really love purple and food and pillows and rainbows and soo much more. i just love lots of puurrrtty stuffs. well, to cut it short, i just love everything. ngeee, ok, i know i'm lame. but its ok, its a start, i'll post a better one soon, (: