excited much!

ok, this is the only time that im free. soo lately, i've been working for kelly that works for vads. so technically we're doing kellys job which is filing, there's alot of weird names. fara was mad when it was my first day because i didnt bring the ipod, she said its going to be boring. it turns out non boring. those names cracked me, its really funny and i didnt mean to laugh but i did. im sorry. okok i rather not tell you the names. ok for 2 days, my cheque was supposedly rm100 but they cut my EPF, which i dont even have EPF. so i got rm88.60. psscht, then this week for 5 days im gonna get rm230. suck gila.


anyway, i cant wait to go to US! woohooo! new york baby, everything there is going to be the best moment of my life because im going with my cousin's family, and im really happy that i got to go because i cant really imagine what would happen to me if nana and i will be seperated. gosh! it would tear me down. thank god i'm going to stick with her. ;D shop shop shop, thats all i could think of, :)

till then,
hugs and kisses. mwah mwah ! ;D

its been awhile,

hello! its been awhile since i've post the last post, heh anyway i am so happy right now because im 16 and 3 days! ;D HAHA! and exams are over, fiuh! and holidays are on! wooo today is the first day of holiday, im so excited, tmrw i'm going to work with kakima thats what fara call her, me and my bestbuddy are going to work together, wow, looks like nothing can seperate us huh, except nana. xO hehe anyway i'm excited that im 16 and i'm going to work and holidays are on, so basically thats it,

now, my birthday. syaq tricked me on the 1st. she said she just want to hang with those knuckleheads that i love, she told them so celebrate my birthday. we went to ou and watched high school musical 3, serious mcm hindustan, hah, then off to rasta. we hang out till 12.30 then off to syaq's. supposedly she wants to take something and then off to her other house, i wore my best outfit, i love my shirt and my skinnies and my flats alot and then POOM! THEY DESTROYED IT! NOOOOOO! it sucks because my outfit smells like eggs, flour and its not just normal eggs, its those eggs yg da busuk tu ha! ee, nana ni. >.<

the next morning, i was told to go to this run thingy that my mum and brother joinned,syaq and i had to be the bag holder. then, when we reach at my house, i was walking into the house then POOM! ANOTHER SUPRISE, nana and the whole famy, mummy and pipi, my family, uncle naj and syaq's famy were there, it was the best moment of the entire year! i felt like crying, but i dont want to get emotional. ehhe, after i walked in the door, my cousins sprayed me this stringy thingy, KENE MANDI LAGI. again, my hair. haish, then they sprayed nuff because its her birthday too. ;D

its ironic how we could be twins, except for the age difference. im 16 and she's 23. our name starts with the letter N. the height is the same, i think. ha, then our hair parting is the same. we got this second child syndrom. and we're the second child in the famy. on that day, we wore the same panty! :O haha! gila cool kot, and uncle naj gave us the same present. thnks.

i got alot of presents and i love each and every of it! ;D

thnkyou loved ones,

anonymous

never once in my life, you support me or you were right behind me when my life falls apart. never. it hurts so much to see how important all these decisions that i have to make and you were not there. you always and will always put me down. you were never proud of me in what i do. when i said i wanted to be a fashion designer, you said "you cant even sew" and when i said i think i want to be a dancer, you said "you cant dance. you can just free style" sakit tau tak! you always prefer when someone else does it, not even me. not once you said "i'm proud of you" or "i like it when najwa does it" it hurts alot to see when you like someone else better. i always wanted to be the best in your eyes at all times. but it seems i cant. i'm not capable of being the best. i cant forget about this because you will always be in my life and you will never ever escape from my life. its just hard to accept the fact that you cant appreciate what i've done and you cant accept me for who i really am. i will remember all these stuffs that i've been through till i die, sadness will never end. so, i've heard.

t-a-i-k

exams are like shits, really! i hate exams. teruk gila, my mum said i'm going to be grounded if i fail one single paper, and guess what. i'm going to be grounded soon, i'm going to fail atleast 3 paper, thats for sure. the exams are hard. and accounts was really frustrating! i didnt even have enough time to do the exam. i think i lost almost 30 marks just like that because i didnt set enough time on each question, argh! ekonomi is also the same, shit shit shit. the question is like up and down from side to side, haa like that. but luckily i can do it, but i think i'll fail too. oh and dont let me start with ADDMATH, if there is a word which is worse than shit, i'd use it but tade. so yeah. addmath was 90 marks, paper 2. and i only answered 5 out of 12. i dont think what i did is even right. argh damn it! addmath, accounts and ekonomi. F-A-I-L! i feel like shit right now, test was shit!

SHITTINGS ! ! !

rumour worthy

today the day itself,

out of all those days it was today,

that hits me,

that particular word means so much to me,

eventhough its not true,

i have no idea why is it so important,

but that word hurts me alot,

i mean alot.

it annoys me like a bug,

it felt like hell,

wondering why do all this things happen in life,

even the closest ones to you can do such thing,

if that thing is true,

why is the person is still my friend?

i dont get it,i know that,

the world doesnt revolve around me,

its not all about me,

i know that.. but im part of,

those people living their lives,

in this same round perfect little world.

being hated is just the same,

as hating someone,

spreading rumours and tons of new rumours,

does not mean,

you are the person,

who everyone likes,

who everyone thinks that you are popular,

why do people want to complicate their own lives?

i know "put some spice in life",

but thats not the way,

getting attention from a bad alley,

is like choosing the wrong path of a great life,

sure, i can say,

what goes around comes around,

but it makes me wonder,

day by day,

when you spread rumours,

are you thinking that,

does the victim deserves it?

or

is the victim just a rumour worthy?

situasi. :)

hello! tuition was cancelled. so kak fiqah, kak nana and kak remp and i went to ou to go grab some lunch and jalan2. so we went, i wanted to follow because i want to fulfil my destiny! which is eating yummy foods at ou, i ate laksa at marks and i ate big big SUPERSTAR CALRS JR! YA ALLAH! SEDAP GILA. but it was tyring. it was big and delicious and the cashier was really disturbing and org org belakang mcm b.a.n.g.a.n.g. haaa, anyway my 50 $$ was gone for the whole 3 hours, i ate and shop. i had to shop, its soo tempting. i bought 2 longsleeves, one brown and one lavender. lawa tau. i saw alot of PMR people there, ye la. pmr da habis kan. i saw that ehem, omg that ehem is sooo cute.it was a big big big time BONUS and in the end i was frustrated because of the fact that i didnt see him after that, kak nana did. =.=' i should have followed her to the outer shop thingy. haish. tape. i can see him next time, if there is a next time. heh.


btw, EHEM IS REALLY CUTE.

big hug small kiss small hug big kiss

for good living,

take two heaping cups of patience,

one heart full of love,

two handfuls of generosity,

a dash of laughter,

one head full of understanding,

sprinkle generously with kindness,

add plenty of faith - mix well,

spread over a period of a lifetime,

and serve everyone you meet,

if everyboby followed this advise, who can disagree, the world would be a happier place in which to be.

big hug small kiss small hug big kiss,

my heart skipped a beat

hey, i have a story to tell about what happened yesterday, i didnt have the chance to online yesterday so yeah.

yesterday the plan was go to fakhrie's house around lunch time to raya raya and then off to jambu's at 5.30. unfortunately i hate being late because when i'm late, people who are already there will look at me like "whoo is that?" haa, thts why, then syaq ni la. lambat sgt. =.=' ok! not the point, we were there, lepak lepak, i ate nasi briyani i think. SEDAP OK! then i was suppose to give this ehem ehem a belated birthday present, somehow from the outside i was brave to see ehem ehem, but actually its a big NONO not ready. everytime i see a boldie, i'll go "is that ehem ehem?" and trust me, my heart was like about to explode, i was SCARED to death, i dont know why, i even asked my cousins to feel my chest and they went "chill najwa". my heart was beating like a i dont know how to describe it. in the end ehem ehem didnt come, (as usual). then i saw ex ehem ehem, the wrong ehem ehem came, i was scared too because that is the only ex ehem ehem who i'm not friends with, so i stayed inside the house the whole time, and being inside the house was very scary and embarrassing too. there was this guy who was like "i want that one, can i have your phone number" yeah, my face turned red everytime he asks a question, then everyone went "haa najwa blushing" =.=' great. i tried everything i could to skip that part, but it was funny though, he's not bad looking,just fine. so i had to give abe the gift to give it to ehem ehem. that kinda pisses me off, for some reason. =.='

then off to jambu's and the first person i saw was another EHEM, so it was awkward too, but its fine. then i met jambu's parents and all. the food was nice, JAMBU MASAK KAN. haa, i told jambu that the rendang is good. he said "i know, i masak" i said in a sarcastic way "ooh, apa you bubuh?" after 10 seconds he replied "rendang" we were all laughing like shit, HAHA sumpah kelakar ok. with jambu's face like this all the time " =.=' " mmg lawak la. ok then, the girls [nana, syaq, fara and najwa] helped wash the dishes and jambu said he will give me rm 1.30 for my pay, pscht sikit gila. =.='

then, we went to rasta at 8. it was going so well after all the talks and laughters and everything, we put some sense in fara's head. and we kinda pissed her off after 2 hours, HAHA using her weakness which is her bestfriend. shh, okok, then my cousin came to rasta with another *cough* ehem, sumpah it was like the most weirdest day i've been through, and syaq was upset why i didnt tell her the secret. come on, its a secret.

it was weird, the day was totally and unplanned weird. if there's a word which is beyond weird i'd use it, but yeah,

i think no one can handle this type of day.

big hug small kiss small hug biss kiss.

reality check

TODAY! today sucks just like yesterday, but today is worse. my day was just fine and happy until the night arrives. i dont know why my night was such a loser disaster. i went to the gym at 7.30 pm and i felt so out of place because i was the youngest and smallest person there, though i like to watch luciano teach them dancing. thats not the point! when i was walking into the gym, i saw this big giant signboard says "WADE ROBSON DANCE WORKSHOP IN MALAYSIA" and i was so excited. come on, who wouldnt be? Its WADE ROBSON! unfortunately i could not afford it because the fee is rm 250. my money will be gone just like that, and i think its worth it but my mom thinks the opposite. she said "NO! i can buy you alot of things with that rm 250" and i said "really?" and she did the 'uh-oh" face and my brother said "HAA! padan muka, sape suro ckp mcm tu" i know she's not going to do that. so thats one of the turn offs for tonight, then i went to fatty crab for dinner, it was delicious and i enjoy my dinner. when i reached home, i felt like "yak yak-ing" but i didnt, so my tummy is growling loudly till my brother asked "what was that?" it was embarrassing but we're family, we're used to it so its okay. back to the point, i was surfing the net and chatting with my friends, then suddenly my guy friend chatted with me, he was just being too straight forward and totally not true, he said i was a player, just because i liked 3 guys this year. =.=' its just LIKE. gosh and it wasnt at the same time, if i get that as a player, i think everyone in this world is a player, eish! 'player' is a sensitive word. he doesnt even know whats going on and doesnt know the whole story, he judged me like i was in a player competition "who's the best player in the world?"GOD! reality check, i didnt even get serious with a guy this year and i was labelled already? haih, my advise, DONT EVER PUT YOUR HOPES UP FOR ANYTHING, THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL GET WHEN YOU DIDNT GET WHAT YOU HOPE YOU'D GET, A RUINNED DAY!

the only wish i need to come true right now is,
"i wish now and forever i want my days to be great and will not be ruinned at the END OF THE DAY!"


big hug small kiss small hug big kiss =*